On January 18, 2016, my favorite artist asked me to marry him and of course I SAID YES!
However, I never thought that planning our wedding would’ve been one of the hardest and the loneliest process I ever had to go through.
In the beginning, everything was clear, I had a plan after all I am an events and wedding planner so this was going to a walk in the park for me. But, it wasn’t.
I wasn’t prepared for the questions, “were you parent happy when they heard the news?” “Did you call your mom when he asked?” “Will your parents help pay for the wedding?”
These were questions I never thought about. Who was going to walk me down the aisle, father daughter dance. Dress shopping etc.
Sure, most people don’t have parents or close relatives or may have the same relationship experiences with their family like myself but that doesn’t mean you don’t feel hurt or sad you can’t experience these moments with a parent, sibling or close relative.
Even though I have my foster parents whom I love deeply, It hurts to know that the one person I want to have a relationship with the most, won't be there to celebrate important memories like this with me.
Often time people think because you forgive someone and you've moved on with your life, you no longer feel or have emotional connections to those you forgave. But the truth is deep down inside we secretly hope one day that person will change and we can start over.
From Miss to Mrs is an incredible new chapter in my life and even though I’m not prepared for the emotional road ahead, I'm looking forward to the journey.
Photo by: Mannequin Factory