With my birthday fastly approaching, I feel as though this month just slipped by me. Finding the balance between writing, running a non-profit organization and working a full-time job isn’t always easy and this month I decided I wasn’t going to write any new blog post.
Since started writing my book, I’ve been having a hard time blogging. I never thought the process of writing this book would’ve taken so much out of me. Depression, loneliness and the feeling of despair, these are the emotions I’ve been fighting this month.
Last year, for the month of March I shared my 31 days of self love post. I talked about self-deception and how we often wear masks to hide what we’re going through. This month I’ve been wearing different masks just to make it through the day.
I feel physically, mentally and emotionally drained. Waking up in the morning gets harder and harder. The simplest of things irritates me and I cry constantly.
Having dealt with depression on various basis, I automatically recognized the signs and try doing things to combat these feelings but I also had to learn to listen to my body and take a day just for myself to be in touch with nature and myself.
I allow myself to feel the emotions that comes my way but I also don’t allow myself to stay in a dark place for too long.
I’m currently in the process of finding the right balance in writing my book and not let the past affect me as much.
“I think recharging is important, absolutely. Every now and then, you need maybe a couple of weeks to just chill out and let your emotions balance themselves out a little bit.”- Malin Akerman